transformation/transmutation

I can almost physically feel the hurt and the anger being extracted from within right now. Such a drastic change from the last couple months of my life.

I won't recount all that has happened in the last few days; I'm much too unstable to relive it all right now, and anyway, the purpose of the extraction process is to allow things to be released, not harp on them. But in an oddly shaped nutshell, I have embarked on a journey that is extremely different than the one I've been on for the last 8 or so years. Actually, eh, scratch that; the path is similar, but my approach has completely changed, and the things I'm confronting/experiencing/working through as a result are phenomenal.

Phenomenal.

Craziness and bouts of bawling abound. But I'm finding beneath them a sense of peace I have never - ever - experienced before in my life. Conviction in its most humble form, unwavering resolve and a burning desire to succeed are among the gifts I've found in the process. And it has only just begun.

I promise to be less cryptic when I'm not being faced with a blogger vs. dinner conundrum. Suffice it for now to say that I am feeling a ton better from my last entry. Thank you all for caring enough to encourage me to light things on fire. (Always an immediate way to tell a friend from apathetic witnesses, for sure.) I promise, whenever it is you need it, I will do the same for you.

Wishing you peace beyond all understanding,

Billie